Right now I just need strength and prayer, tons of it. I have never been alone, and Carlos has never been back to Mexico since he was 14. The only thing he is excited about is seeing his Mom for the 1st time in 16 years. Other than that he is scared to go back because it is so dangerous there. There was no way of getting around him going back. It's just the way it has to be. I am mostly sad about him not getting to kiss his son goodnight every night or just tell him I love you face to face. I know my husband will be back and our lives together will be much better and more complete, but getting there sucks.
I wanted to blog about this because I have tons of people asking me WHY? I hope this will help you to understand. It's just the way it has to be. I wish it were different and easier.
I want to thank every one of my friends for being here for me through prayer and sharing all your kind words. I love you all and you will never know much I need you right now.
When Carlos comes home we are going to have a HUGE celebration! I will make sure to keep everyone posted.