A Mommy of Two Boys

We are excited to be having another baby BOY!!! We had it confirmed at 17 weeks 1 day.

Doesn't This Look Delish?

This is usually one of my favorite things to eat. It's chiles pablanos from El Mariachi on Zumbehl. I couldn't wait to get home and eat it, I was so hungry. Well I got through about 4 bites and my stomach started turning. I can't believe how much different this pregnancy is from when I was pregnant with Greyson. TOTALLY DIFFERENT! I should just stay away from El Mariachi because this is the second time we have gotten food from there and my body wasn't happy. Last time I barely made it out of the parking lot before I found a bag in my car to get sick on. NO MORE MEXICAN FOR ME.....I guess that means Carlos needs to go too.... : )

A Surprise Ultrasound Today

I was not expecting and ultrasound at all. I thought I was just going in for a 4 week check. I got to see the baby really good today and it was the best feeling EVER! Heart rate was 167 and lil pee wee would barely sit still. I saw him/her do a flip and wave to me all at the same time. AWWWWW, BABY! I have an appointment in 3 weeks to find out the gender!!! I am really hoping for a baby girl. This is our last baby and a baby girl would be so great. Of course no matter what this baby will be a huge blessing to us. Thank you God!

11 week Ultrasound

Yesterday I had another ultrasound done and Mom, Tami and Kylie came with me. It was so neat to see him/her moving around all over the place this time. How in the world is that going on inside of me and I DON'T FEEL IT? LOL. It is just amazing. So here is the picture of our little skeleton.

Catching You Up

Since I last blogged Carlos went to Mexico to become legal and I am excited to say that he is home again since January 21, 2011. He was gone almost 3 months. So for Halloween, Thanksgiving, my birthday, Christmas and New Years Eve my husband was gone. Now that it's over with I realize how fast it really all went.

Greyson turned 5 August 25th and is in preschool. He won't get to start school until next year due to his birthday falling so late. He is a smart guy and I am happy to keep him home another year. He's growing up too fast anyway.

One more thing I wanted to share is that Greyson is going to be a big brother in April 2012. Today I had an ultrasound done confirming that it is a viable pregnancy and the heartbeat was a whopping 176!!! GOD IS SO GOOD! My husband is home and legal and we have another 2 feet entering our family next year!!!

Carlos left Mexico when he was 14 because his Dad was an alcoholic and abused him. He pulled Carlos out of school at the age of 12 to work for the family. His uncle knew what was going on and asked him if he wanted to come to the US. So he came here illegally. I met him in 1998 and moved in with him 6 months later. At that time I didn't know he wasn't legal. I just knew I loved him. We married 4 years later and now have been married 8 years. A lot of people think once you're married, they become legal. Well that's not the case, I wish. For the past 4 years we have been working with an immigration attorney to make him legal. I guess I never thought he would ever have to actually leave. We were told he would, but hoped things would change with the laws and he would be able to become legal while he was here. After filing tons of paperwork and paying a lot of money the day has come for Carlos to go back to Mexico to become legal. He has an interview at the Mexican embassy on October 29th at 11:15. He will have to go to 2 interviews. Only after the first one can he schedule the 2nd one. That is where 2-6 months comes from. It takes a while to get the appointment. The first interview they will make him take a blood test and prove he's not on drugs or been in any trouble here in the US. The 2nd interview is when Carlos will get to introduce his life here with us. Then he will show pictures of our lives together dating back to 1998. Each one had to be dictated by me as to what was going on in the picture and the year. We had to get together letters from people in my family, our counselor and others saying how they knew Carlos and saying why they think he needs to be here. I also had to write one. You can imagine how emotional I got while typing that up. I have so many people asking why he has to go back to Mexico. Ever since 9-11, becoming legal here is much harder. It's a good thing, but not for us. It has been very tough going through this. I would never wish this pain on anyone. I love my husband so very much. He cares so much for me and Greyson.

Right now I just need strength and prayer, tons of it. I have never been alone, and Carlos has never been back to Mexico since he was 14. The only thing he is excited about is seeing his Mom for the 1st time in 16 years. Other than that he is scared to go back because it is so dangerous there. There was no way of getting around him going back. It's just the way it has to be. I am mostly sad about him not getting to kiss his son goodnight every night or just tell him I love you face to face. I know my husband will be back and our lives together will be much better and more complete, but getting there sucks.

I wanted to blog about this because I have tons of people asking me WHY? I hope this will help you to understand. It's just the way it has to be. I wish it were different and easier.

I want to thank every one of my friends for being here for me through prayer and sharing all your kind words. I love you all and you will never know much I need you right now.

When Carlos comes home we are going to have a HUGE celebration! I will make sure to keep everyone posted.

A Shout Out....

I just wanted to say

HaPpY BiRThdAY GrEYsoN!!!!!

Mommy and Daddy Love you soooooooo much!

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Had to share this, gave me chills....

Our 14 year old dog, Abbey, died last month. The day after she died, my 4 year old daughter Meredith was crying and talking about how much she missed Abbey.. She asked if we could write a letter to God so that when Abbey got to heaven, God would recognize her. I told her that I thought we could so she dictated these words: Dear God, Will you please take care of my dog? She died yesterday and is with you in heaven. I miss her very much. I am happy that you let me have her as my dog even though she got sick. I hope you will play with her.. She likes to play with balls and to swim. I am sending a picture of her so when you see her You will know that she is my dog. I really miss her. Love, Meredith We put the letter in an envelope with a picture of Abbey and Meredith and addressed it to God/Heaven. We put our return address on it... Then Meredith pasted several stamps on the front of the envelope because she said it would take lots of stamps to get the letter all the way to heaven. That afternoon she dropped it into the letter box at the post office. A few days later, she asked if God had gotten the letter yet. I told her that I thought He had. Yesterday, there was a package wrapped in gold paper on our front porch addressed, 'To Meredith' in an unfamiliar hand.. Meredith opened it. Inside was a book by Mr. Rogers called, 'When a Pet Dies..' Taped to the inside front cover was the letter we had written to God in its opened envelope. On the opposite page was the picture of Abbey &Meredith and this note: Dear Meredith, Abbey arrived safely in heaven. Having the picture was a big help. I recognized Abbey right away. Abbey isn't sick anymore. Her spirit is here with me just like it stays in your heart.. Abbey loved being your dog. Since we don't need our bodies in heaven, I don't have any pockets to keep your picture in, so I am sending it back to you in this little book for you to keep and have something to remember Abbey by.. Thank you for the beautiful letter and thank your mother for helping you write it and sending it to me. What a wonderful mother you have. I picked her especially for you. I send my blessings every day and remember that I love you very much. By the way, I'm easy to find, I am wherever there is love. Love, God

Welcome Home Gracie

I have been thinking about adopting another dog for about a month now. It's been 7 months now since Fido went to Heaven and I just felt it was time to give Minnie another friend. I wanted to take in a dog that wasn't a puppy and maybe had it rough so I could give it a great life. I came across Gracie's puppies on STLtoday.com yesterday. They were super adorable and going for $250. When I called the owner she mentioned that the mommy of the pups needed a new home also. She had given her away to a friend and Gracie got pregnant, so the friend gave her back. The owner couldn't keep her because she had an autistic son that was stressing Gracie. When I saw Gracie and held her for the first time, I knew I wanted her and not one of the pups. She just looked so relieved and limp in my arms, licking on my face. I knew it was right that she come to our home so she can be a spoiled dog like she needs to be. I am taking her to the vet for the first time in who knows how long. She'll be examined today and get her shots. Then we'll make arrangements to get her fixed so she doesn't have to have anymore pups. I feel really good about my decision to make Gracie a part of out household. She loves Greyson and he can't believe she will actually sit in his car seat on his lap with him. Minnie would NEVER do that.. haha.